Hug is Concern, Caring and Loving

those who feels they r

2010-10-21T11:48:00.000-07:00

Evrone around me is juz feeling weird these few days....too many stuffs in one shot,too many clashes,busy,and moody...i worrying bout my frenz...juz promise to b thr when u guys need me...remember me whenever u think u r lost and down...caz frenz r meant to b lik this..all the best,my buddies...best wishes....

Appreciation leads to happy life

2010-09-08T21:32:00.000-07:00

A nice thing to share about....learn and appreciate wat u hv...optimistic for evrday life...since it's juz a life,so pass it happily...as my fren said...it's gd to b hapi evrday..u wil make ur life happier and even influence others in their life...cheer and smile:P

错误的开始

2010-03-02T11:59:00.000-08:00

早上四点，为了学业而起床的我，感觉身心疲惫。好久没有写部落格了！怀念中学一切的一切，发现学业开始跟不上脚步了，害怕及颤抖的心，让我对我现今的生活有着放弃的冲动，但金钱真是一个头痛的问题，为了家人，我会继续撑下去，五年罢了，用来安慰自己，或许是一个再逞强不过的理由。回归问题，我真的做错了，后悔了，在弥补着，但我可以为我自己的过错付出多少代价呢？他是那么的好，但我却那么轻易的伤害了他。或许“早知没有结局，当初就不应该给他机会，必定有人会受伤”。但是当初真的有想过给他机会，让我们彼此有更进一步的了解，拉进彼此的关系，但我似乎没有分寸，不知道界限，是我的错，还没长大的我，请你原谅。喜欢一个人是没有错的，但不想被一个人喜欢也是没有错的！我明白控制自己的情绪是很困难的，但是你无缘无故的吃醋，会让我很难做人，会让我失去很多知己好友，你知道吗？我当初真的给你希望太高了，让你认为我们已经有很大可能开始的机会，但事到如今，我发现彼此不适合，我本来就不是你的谁，从来不是，现在不是，以后也不会是，那么我不希望你再这么执着了！但情感这事要是能用理智去衡量，那么就不会有人为情而死，不会为了爱情做出了那么多不可理喻的事。“问世间情为何物，直叫人与生死相许”让他现在像是一个没有灵魂的躯壳，自暴自弃的，让自己消失在黑暗中！这都是我一手造成的，该死的人是我，为什么？你神经啊？把一个好好的人搞成这样，你心安吗？过得了自己那一关吗？自私的我，连我都瞧不起我自己，你这样，还每天说对每个人都好。这是哪门子的话啊？我该怎么办？我真该死，逃避永远都不是最好的办法，但是无知及幼稚的我简直是不知该怎么办。

UPFB

2010-01-26T07:44:00.000-08:00

犹豫不决永远都是最糟糕的选择，或许我已经习惯对自己要求太高，对自己施加太多的压力，习惯一个人生活及自由自在的生活，不喜欢约束及拘束，不习惯别人对我的好，不代表我不会珍惜。我不是你的谁，不要对我那么好，让我感到愧疚及亏欠。不确定我对你的是否是感觉还是只是依赖，因为不想只是为了谈恋爱而在一起，那不会是最真实的感情，你知道后会造成更大的伤害，这样对你很不公平。或许也是时候有个答案了，但我真的可以做出个决定吗？

waiting for miracles.....

2010-01-16T05:50:00.000-08:00

when one's heart is occupied by sumone,dun ever wait...caz it's a suffer...i can't promise u hw long will u wait....bt i feel sori and guilty let u to wait for me while i'm waiting for d othr person....dun wait....although i try my best to treat u good and try to rely on u,bt deep inside my heart,i still knw tat i can't put dwn d othr person....tis is juz aren't fair for u and me....i reli feel sori and guitly towards u...honestly,i'm damn stress out and frust with myself...i duno wat the hell am i thinking and doing......i juz try to rely on u bt i knw tat i juz can't forget him.....i dun dare to love sumone and i dun dare to play LOVE this kinda game....mayb u cn juz say i too protect myself o wateva.....bt u knw wat,i reli stress and even cried when i think of tis.....omg...millions sori...mayb time proof evrting.....sumtimes i juz tink tat i'm nt worth for u to love me so much....if reli u cn put dwn evrting,delete me frm ur memories....let us b fren again,ok??i mean juz best fren......sori and thx for the love tat u hv given me......

灰色地带

2009-11-08T05:23:00.000-08:00

爱着你呵护你承受着你
忽冷忽热态度十分难挨
守护着这份爱
难道只为了最后望着你离开
昨天只是明天的开始
不愿这样被遗憾主宰
爱陷入灰色地带
相处若没感情
就该分开
爱逝去不能重来
放弃只是一种无奈
因为爱已不在
爱过了哭过了心已累了
感情怎么变得如此难挨
两个人一份爱
走到尽头还是一个人的感慨

原来友情竟可以那么的脆弱

2009-11-08T05:04:00.000-08:00

友情，是建立于互相信任，互相帮忙，需要时一起面对，一起分享，但原来友情，也可在毫无防备心之下，就这样破灭，不能弥补，也不知其原因。有些事情，有时是需要些解释什么来着，不能让一个人在茫茫云雾中寻觅答案，一个永远没有的答案。我还需要介意这已经不知道是什么价值，已经不知道在我心目中是什么重量的天平的友情吗？谁能明明确确，真真实实的告诉我？难道之前的回忆都已成过去，一去不返？那些一起度过的日子，温馨快乐的感觉依然在我脑海里。为什么我那么的在乎你，你却可以装作看不见，把我透明化？我珍惜每一段友情，与每一个人的友情，我们现在到底算什么？见面哈拉的朋友？还是我们还是好朋友？我真的很期待你给我答案的那一天！不闻不问会更让我伤心难过的！我在你眼里到底是什么？？？？？？？

犹豫着的茫茫前途

2009-10-12T06:09:00.000-07:00

九月刚狠心拒绝了一个护士的课程的邀请，现在又来多一个，一个在十月二十二日的面试，我该去吗？我到底是不是很适合做护士啊？我不知自己何时申请了这几项奖学金，但我真的不知该往哪儿去了。在这里的确读得很辛苦，心酸只有自己知晓，不敢告诉他人，只因这些是自己该烦恼的事，让我不知该向谁倾诉心中的纳闷。犹豫着......就好像宽敞无际的海洋，永远不知道答案在何方，多希望海浪能为我解答，海鸥听我倾诉....

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Random

2009-10-10T23:16:00.000-07:00

Sori for not uploading the blog for quite a long time...haha....Is a mentally education camp at penang during my mid sembreak...It teach me a lot throughout this camp...although gt bit boring at d beginning,it is quite meaningful afterall.....pictures with all my teammate....and all d gals need to tie such hair which i dun used to it....haha...but well,afterall is juz for 3 days....i won't tie it after that,....haha....handphone stuck now,maybe uploading the pictures next time....

Two weeks from now!!!!

2009-09-03T21:54:00.000-07:00

One week from now is going to be our final exam...although haven't study, but evrone muz be confident with ourselves saying that we cn overcome evrthing and strive for d 2nd sem....jia you and dun play ady...no free time for oni one week and tat's all...evrone muz tink of ur future....jia you lo...although i'm vr lazy nw, i will DO my best to study but nt try my best....I sure can do it....all the best to myself and all my UTPian mates...Final exam,here I will rule you!!!

Day juz pass in flash

2009-08-31T05:11:00.000-07:00

is an emo day for me...juz duno y...maybe too much things i keep dy and suddenli today juz burst such....words from frenz,lyrics of songs and wateva thing tat make me emo........i duno wat actuali happen to me.no time for me to emo dy...but still can't settle down my feelings.still gt lots of stuffs to do.writing task,physics assignment, tutorial and bla bla bla....so many things...hope i will still surviving after d final exam......haha.....then penang here i come!!!!!!!!!!

food of the day!

2009-08-30T04:50:00.000-07:00

What a boring day....omg......whole day with facebook....and i reali duno wat happen to my son...i'm reali vr vr wori about him man....yw,u will be fine and jia you....think optimistic bit.....be with u alwiz...best wishes for me....

My lunch is fried rice tapao by olivia on the way back from her church...thx ya...it's cost me RM4 but it's worth....caz got lots of fish...haha...

oooo....fish.....

My dinner: v2 cafe chicken rice and some of my favourite kuih...although i soar throat,i dun get to eat d karipap,it's for olivia..the green kuih is fantastic...yummy...

pity my stomach....

2009-08-29T04:29:00.000-07:00

porridge cook by olivia...thx for cooking dinner for me...haha...with ikan bilis and rou4 si1..haha

frenz almost all go back dy...left me and olivia kesian in d block tat quite empty and quiet.good oso,the internet suddenli vr fast liao....my dinner for tonite before going to badminton...dun jealous ya........haha

a recovering day...

2009-08-28T22:53:00.000-07:00

recover faster than expected....the 1st time i swallow so many panadols in one day....6 biji man...omg....no choice la...dun wan kena quarantined ma....if i reali recover later,badminton here i come.....hope i cn go play later la......thx for evrone concern......take care ya...amitabha

a terrible friday

2009-08-28T06:34:00.001-07:00

havin fever since last night...so sleep early at almost 11pm..but haven't finish studying...so wake up today 5 am...damn tired....then sleep back at 6 sumthing and wake up again at 8 sumthing then sleep again at 9am...until finally found that i can't wake up dy....damn hot my whole body and my head reali pain like hell....so i continue sleep...vivan dun let me wake up...thx her for taking care of me....fever until 39.5 degree celcius....omg...i dun wan kena quarantined....dun wan go c doctor and hate eating panadol....but at last juz nw,i chose nt to be quarantined so swallow 2 panadol go in.....feeling better now...sori to eho,i knw i damn stubborn...haha....but at last,kena my mum scold...hehe...so hope can recover tomolo and wan go badminton....if nt,i dead boring here....

Exam is tomolo

2009-08-24T20:48:00.001-07:00

I did nothing...test is tomolo...i still haven't finish study...haiz...duno y,feel vr sleepy whole day...but i slept yesterday 10pm wor...duno wat happen to me...blur...hope i cn pass my test tomolo which i absolutely blank bout trigonometry.....physics???friday ar.....4 chaps haven't study...muz burn midnight oil dy after precalculus test.....PAVILLION,here i come...my 'bed' for wed and thurs...haha...muz continue study dy...if nt.....hmm....

Friday life

2009-08-20T23:55:00.000-07:00

wake up 7 sumthing today for precalculus tutorial...but juz realize my tutor change dy..haiz...caz ponteng too much la...that's d results...haha...staying in irc now...doing wiley precalculus quiz...later havin physics lecture tonight....hmm....going to icc meeting later 8pm to 11pm..if d meeting ends early,then BADMINTON time!!!whoa....d onli realiability in utp...juz duno y...today quite moody....feel like missing sumthing,...good luck to me in evrone in next week test.and enjoy urself for those who r going for femine 30...i reali hope to join..maybe next time....got d feeling of writing blog today after c get eho's blog...haha...

Sweet memories

2009-06-26T23:11:00.000-07:00

some pictures with my frenz who dun wana go back home...too free la them...here are some pictures with them...weird posts all....

Life in UTP

2009-06-12T19:55:00.000-07:00

been here for almost 2 weeks.the food here nt reali nice compared to my hometown.upload few pictures.hope i can reali be tough and pass through these 5 years which i don't reali lik physics.haiz....jia you ba and i cn persuade myself to pass through.since i must go through it anyway,juz let me pass my life happily.but nt miserably.it's my choice hw to pass my life.actuali,people here are vr friendly.reali glad to meet them here.when the road meet the ends,buddha will create another junction for me.amitabha.dun give up and i will see the rainbow after the rain.

at sitiawan one day before i enter utp.my brother,cute rite?i know he miss me a lot.wagaga

Moral session during MAS.I love the moral session so much.I think everyone love moral sessions.Thx to Kee,Yen Ping,Kuhan,Satia and Jenna.We enjoy our MAS because of you guys.and all the best in utp life for my angel and mortel.gambateh la.

thx to all facilitators.we know you guys actuali concern lot bout us.we reali feel the warmness of UTP.thx vr much.A lot of talks is not ur faults.we understand tat it's compulsory for you guys to do that.facilitators,great job done.all the best in you guys study.you guys reali help us a lot.gambateh lo.Platoon A5.although i dun reali cn recognize you guys until now,but we will be together for 5 yrs,we will know each othr well then.thx to kak shikin and satia for providing useful info for us to survive in utp.u guys knw what am i talking rite?wagaga

The fire drill practice 4am in the morning.damn tired and thoso who came down late kena splash by the host.kesiannya roomate saya.wagaga.who ask her so lazy?hahaha

The floating mosque in UTP.

The Information Resources Centre (IRC)in utp.My favourite place in UTP because it's air conditioned and is a nice place to study and it has lots of different kind of books and resources.

Going Off soon

2009-05-29T16:03:00.000-07:00

I'm leaving for Perak today.Gonna miss everything in home.Reali hope i cn manage and suite my life in my new environment.

This Guy is so..... cute.

2009-05-21T01:23:00.000-07:00

This is the couple i love the most in 'Boys Over Flowers'.But,too bad,handsome,good and such perfect guy only will appear in movie but not reality.so muz wake myself up before i fall into it.wahaha.hope this guy will success well in his career. gambateh,kim bum!

expecting university life

2009-05-21T01:06:00.000-07:00

i'm going to University Technology Petronas next week.It is quite a worry and excited feeling.i can't really describe that much.i will going to miss all my friends.my new classmates are so funny and noisy.hope they enjoy their form 6 life and all the best.wahaha.so,that's all for my first post.i'll try to upload my uni pic as soon i get into it.thanks for everyone who concern about me.good luck to all u guys.